opening up

Ok, I admit it, I do read my horoscope every now and then. A lot of them are rubbish. But a few months ago, a friend forwarded me a link to horoscopes with a difference, written by a fella called Rob Breszny. Even if you don't take any notice of the advice given, the horoscopes themselves are so poetic and wacky, I just enjoy reading them. Last week's Leo horoscope was so beautiful I copied it and saved it.

"The geography of your heart is evolving. In places, coastlines are disappearing. Elsewhere, new islands have risen out of the sea. Boundaries are shifting, as some nations dissolve and others are born. Even the climate is changing, with warm winds blowing where once there was year-round chill, and monsoon-like conditions invading desert ecosystems. Roads that formerly led to the center of the action no longer do, and highways that used to be peripheral are now main routes. I suggest you take note of all this by redrawing your map, Leo. Get up to date with your heart's new landscapes."

This week's Aquarius horoscope (mine) is equally beautiful. So I'm sharing it.

"Are we being sentimentally unscientific when we refer to the heart as the seat of the soul? Or does that idea contain a truth that surpasses reductive rationalism? In *A Dictionary of Symbols,* J.E. Cirlot reports that in the Jewish tradition, meditation involves "speaking to one's heart." According to Christian tradition, the Kingdom of God resides in the heart. Hindus say the supreme god Brahma lives there, and in Islam, the heart is referred to as the throne of God. If you can get your modern prejudices out of the way, Aquarius, your next assignment is to have a sustained, intimate, heart-to-heart communion with your heart. Learn more about its secret thoughts. Converse with it as if it were the literal source of your emotional intelligence. Proceed on the hypothesis, as French philosopher Pascal did, that "great thoughts come from the heart."

So far I've limited myself to just posting drawings and some photos on my blogs. I've been wary of being too personal, mainly because of the thought of someone I vaguely but don't really know somehow stumbling upon them and reading them. Not the people who are my friends, but people I don't know well enough to normally share my thoughts with. But then again, maybe I'm being too presumptuous that my life would be that interesting to anyone. And if I don't want to reveal myself then why have a blog at all? And what am I afraid of? Being known? Being judged? If I'm going to be judged, I'm going to be judged anyway. And what does one person's judgement matter over another's, especially the imagined judgement from someone I don't even know? I guess I don't want to be misjudged. But I can't control what other people think of me. All I can do is be me, whatever that means. So there. This means I might be getting more personal. Or not. We'll see. It depends on my level of paranoia when I next sit down to blog.